The wall is still GREEN!
First it has to make sense to me in a logical reasonable way so that I can wrap my mind around it. I cannot simply say "I believe" and voila become a believer. I mean you can make me say the words but in my mind I would still believe in only what makes sense to me. So what is the point? For eg: Someone can show me a green wall and ask me to believe it is red, but my mind would just see it for what it actually is. A bloody GREEN wall! Just because I say I believe it is red does not mean I can actually believe it.
In the same way, no matter how hard people intentionally or unintentionally try to shove down their doctrines on me, I just simply cannot go against my mental reasoning and instinct just to succumb to their dogmas. Some of them mean well I know and actually believe that they are saving my soul from eternal damnation or summat. But I ask of them to let me think for myself since I don't preach about my values (or the lack of it) to them either.
Seriously I can't even sing a song in peace these days. I was singing to myself among some people one day. The song was "Mrs.Robinson" by Simon and Garfunkel. There is this line in the song that goes, "Jesus loves you more than you will know". The moment I sang that part they were on my ass about how I should not sing such things and that people might think I was a Christian or something!
Wtf? Can't a girl sing a classic rock song in peace without buzzards circling around making preposterous accustations? It was just a frikkin classic rock song and it wasn't even in a religious context! We don't officially have any religious police here like in Iran or Saudi Arabia, but some of the locals here are sufficient, I think. :|
We have been given a brain that thinks, analyzes and come to conclusions, so why not use it. Isn't that the beauty of it? And even if the conclusion you come to is totally distorted, keep it to yourself instead of shoving it down innocent bystanders throats! Must you simply drag down others with you? I shall use and old cliche' "live and let live' . Easier said than done.
The future scares me . . .